The Maenad's Bone Garden

 A bit of Delayed Grief and Gratification Meant to post this up last month on her birthday but November was a deep abyssal depression that I am still in some respects, trying to scrape off of me as I climb out of it. She would have turned 72 this year, were she still in the land of the living. This is not really a lit post though if I can salvage the MSG from poor Xanadu’s hard drive, this will pro’lly wind up slipped in there … somewhere. If. If If If. So many possibilities for failure….like in a proper tabletop RPG. This gets hella personal so if that is also not your jam, maybe stop reading here. Thanks!   CW growing up in an abusive household, light discussion of sexual issues, mental health issues, socially inappropriate musings on one's progenitors, tabletop RPGs TW Dead Parents  About my dead mother ... I am pretty sure at this point that my mother started the Game of Life with the same character package I did, with just a few critical differenc...

At least per DSM IV I qualify for seven of nine listed anxiety and nine distinct personality & mood disorders. Yes really. You could print out a chart, fire buckshot at it and most of the hits would be accurate. I am what happens when someone fierce is treated this badly this for near of five decades.     You know, I’m here But FUCK YOU I’m full of lovingkindness but honestly I would best express that thought to you in a knife fight   In a world full of sharks be prepared to eat well and dine on big fish.