PsYCHOPOMPS AND CIRCUMSTANCEs - a ruminating meditation

PsYCHOPOMPS AND CIRCUMSTANCEs

 

Late summer is a fine time for livin’ and dying

Why is always this time of year that you take them away from me Goddess?

Fall is time for souls’a reaping

Grim, Jo, Mase, Jay, what the fuck is so appealing about

Dying this time of year

note to insert some trite harvesting bit, pencil it in for  July through October

Now presenting the MATRICULATING DEAD OF 2022…..


Or has this August just claimed another forlorn victim, lost in the storm and taken by force?

Did your stray thoughts do this?

Did those words ever come back?

No.

Stray thoughts should stay ghoulish forever

And mindful, A warning

Take back not what you say for

It is Not unirrevocable

And your actions are paid for.

Your words are eternal,

This bill following to the grave.

 

There are no delays, when the

Ship leaves port,

All bills are paid.

No debts. No taking away. Done and away

I can’t believe it

I’m still angry with you

(What the fuck is wrong with me )

 

Today is the first day that the surgery bruises stopped 

expanding and are noticeably shrinking, 

I guess you were my sacrifice today 

on my way out of this the maze,

My sweet sweet Tamuuz. 

I will miss you

But

Without remorse

Remain with your words and falsehood in your Labyrinth, I will fill the Skies above.

I will not be diminished by you. 


- the Maenad, sick of forms, sick of borders, sick of structures we did not create

(and yes, that sixth line is supposed to be there as are the colours)

-Fire day, 23rd August 2022

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