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Second Rising

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  The Ishtar Cycle is a tree growing from the roots of my own lived experiences, with ripe, succulent fruit of erotica and defiant trans joi hanging heavily from her branches. Gleeful, offensive, and unapologetic in describing the Real and the Desired, uncompromising in it’s singular vision; an experiment in high art wrought with the commonest Vulgate. This, my first chapbook collection of poetry and verse, was published in 2021 by Lupercalia Press; The Ishtar Cycle was edited by Venus Cohen and the beautiful cover and interior art are by Embry Valentino. It is now available direct from me through my patreon. Content Warnings:    BDSM, Class Warfare, Drugs, Erotica, Edge Play, Free Love, Mythology, Polyamory, Pornography, Poverty, Religion, Sex, Sacred Sex, Sex Work, Trans Joy, and Trans Liberation Not appropriate for those who think sex is dirty, that the body is dirty, and those that are more offended by talk of poverty than pornography. Slut shamers will light on fire
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2023

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  ... Has been a long hard trip. I’ve had … other years as challenging as this one. 2001 when I left Texas, 2004 when I had to leave university (and San Angelo, where my kid was) as I had no where else to live, and of course 2008 when I moved to California and lost my fucking mind. All of these, rough, some voluntary, some not, hard times of ungentle transition. Many bridges are burning, even though I did not light them. All I had to do was insist on my boundaries and my needs, and let those who would not – could not – respect this, find the door out of my life. And like some of those years, this has been among the worst years of my life. It wasn’t *all* bad of course. I’ve grown, tremendously, I’ve done actual metric fuckloads of self-work this year. (You may not think it but it takes quite a bit of self-knowledge and even more courage for the Queen of Excess to admit and acknowledge when she is overstimulated.) I published my second collection, this one a CNF/Poetry/
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Do you have a story about accessing sexual, reproductive, or gender affirming health care?

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  Seeking Storytellers!! Do you have a story to share about accessing healthcare? What is the goal of the project? This project aims to document and disseminate the stories of women and gender diverse people with disabilities who have accessed, or attempted to access, sexual and reproductive healthcare or gender affirming healthcare in the United States. We hope that by sharing this information publicly, we can increase understanding about the barriers that exist and advocate to ensure improved access for all. Who is eligible to participate? People who meet all of the following criteria: Identify as a person with a disability Identify as a woman (cis or trans), a transgender man, nonbinary, and gender diverse Have accessed or attempted to access sexual and reproductive healthcare, such as routine and preventative care, information and care related to sexually transmitted infections [STIs], fertility care, pregnancy care, abortion care, or have acc
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Capsule Review - Trans Dimensional Beings

 I loved this album - I did not intend to listen to it in it's entirety at first sitting but it sucked my perceptions in, and did so in the best way almost immediately.   To me it is very centering and oddly calming. Like a controlled factory reset for the brain, about 11 or 12 times consecutively.   This is a unique and highly experimental sound and I dig it a great deal.   It's wonderful.  Trans Dimensional Beings on Soundcloud
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the Ishtar (Rinse) Cycle

Lupercalia Press has (formally) folded. Which means that my first publication, the Ishtar Cycle, is now completely out of circulation.   While I suppose I could try to find another publisher to keep it in print, it's not like it's going to sell monstrously better just because it's got a new publisher. I will, however, be selling (ha!)  digital copies as soon as I can get a storefront set up.  I do wonder what happened to the rest of the hard copies but honestly, it's maybe for the best that I don't think about that.
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That rarest of things here, a link post - The Shame of Discussing Childhood Abuse for Queer People and Sex Workers

Please give this article a solid read.  The blog is a recent discovery and I have been reading it voraciously there is tremendous insight to be found here. (But then, if people listened to us, and valued our (authentic) voices over 'the familiar,' I think the world would not be in the situation it is today Content and Trigger Warnings for homophobia, transphobia, trauma, childhood abuse, shame, sex work, and (especially) our currently active culture of transphobia and anti-trans hatred. "The thing about this sort of propaganda is that even when we know it’s untrue, members of these demographics are still terrified of proving them right. One more individual who has been abused and is gay or trans or a sex worker is not evidence that childhood abuse is the cause, and yet the idea that people will say it is makes us terrified to discuss our own abuse histories openly lest they be used by bigots. This is compounded if our abusers were gay or trans or sex workers themselves, b
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January Writer's Resist Reading

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 The video for the January reading from the December issue of Writers Resist has gone live. I know many of you will want to know when I'm in there - I read twice, I think fourth along and then toward the end. ALL of the pieces are good and I urge you to please watch the whole thing - I especially was fond of  Yvonne Patterson's reading of hegemony: footnotes in future history , Kathy Kremins' Ode to My Reflection in the Mirror (on just one day)   and I was completely blown away by Tara Campbells reading of Prolapse . Watch the whole reading here. 
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Life as Agitprop

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A rant.  There are two things I’m never ever going to write unless presented with specific kinds of sell-out money – something six or seven figures. Transition narratives and some meandering plodding thing talking about how much I resent being a mother.  Each is 'the pigeonhole' – the thing that as trans people and women respectively we are "expected" to write. Fucking ew. The second one is soaking in biological essentialism and women as second class citizens. Also, I’d have to actually lie – I’d have to have been able to have a say in raising my child for me to be able to hold it in contempt. I don’t, and never have encountered a single one of those that didn’t leave me with a feeling of “must be nice to be that much of an asshole.”  My kid wound up with her Trump voting relatives for high school because birth-mom had better things to do.  Now she runs with Godslurping dipshits and wears an NRA hat.    Besides, I'm from Texas. There was NEVER a possibil
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